Yesterday, I raced in the Scripps Ranch 4th of July fun ride race. That’s right, I raced it. At this point, someone usually point out, “It’s a ride, not a race”, and to them I say flatly - baloney! Among the 200 or so riders starting the 50-mile course, I’ll bet there wasn’t more than a handful who weren’t racing.
This was going to be a big test for me. Not as much a test of my fitness as a test of my head and heart. Do I have what it takes to race a 50-mile course with some of the strongest riders in all of San Diego county? Do I have the mental and emotional fortitude to race?
There were a lot of shaved legs at the start. Lots of categorized and club racers were there for the 7am start. There were also a lot of grey-dogs. Guys in their 40’s who are ex-olympians, ex-national champs or ex-ironmen and looking to prove they still have it. Why do they come to this race? I don’t know, but there they are, every year.
Last year, after yo-yo’ing off the back almost immediately, I got decisively popped at mile 22, on the first little bumps before Del Dios. I did not have what it took. This year, in the best form of my life, I would race as hard as I could and finish close to the front. It was to be an ALL-OUT effort, leaving everything I had on the road. Do I have what it takes to race?
Consider the flash of color, the sounds, the speed, the exhilaration of riding in a 7-across peloton. Racing happens really fast in the peloton. At 27 mph, surrounding by racers, the peloton becomes an organic being of it’s own. A bit of my inner (and outer) monologue:
“Watch your position - move up! move up!”
“Ho hey! Ho hey! Give me some room, buddy.”
“On your left, that’s my wheel!”
“There goes Mark, get his wheel!”
“Drink, drink, you gotta stay hydrated - how do you drink going this fast?”
“Where the heck is Voris going, better go with him…”
“Come on guy, fill the gap - hey, watch your line!”
We mostly stopped for lights, or just momentarily took them over after the cars stopped to gawk at us. We took the entire first lane of whatever road we were on for the first half of the race, until the peloton exploded climbing Del Dios. I recorded a top speed of 53 miles an hour flying down Calle Cristobal. I was handlebar to handlebar with 30 other riders and I don’t know how many more behind me. I was too afraid to turn around.
On San Dieguito Rd, the rider in front of me suddenly slowed - I had to brake to avoid hitting him. People behind me shouted and the guy on my right was suddenly on me, our bars tangling. We leaned on each other a second or two, got stable and kept going. There was no stopping, there was no, “wow, we almost crashed” moment, this was a race. A shout, a push, some grumbling and the race continues.
Taking a corner at 25 mph is really fun - now do it with 20 other guys. The peloton becomes an animal and I am part of the animal. I get a little vertigo sometimes with so much motion around me, but I focus on the other riders and keep racing.
Save your energy by staying out of the wind - but you have to move up, cause other riders are always swarming around you. The best is to find some sucker in the wind, moving up and jump on his wheel. Let him do the work. Occasionally, when it’s important, you gotta get in the wind, move up. Being on the back is death. It’s pops-ville back there. Somebody about to snap will let a gap go to the group and you’re done. No, it’s better to be in the top 10 or 20 positions. Once I was moving up with some guy who went straight off the front, so I followed, in his slipstream and barely working. Then he pulled off to the side, exhausted. I was at no more than 80% hr max. I coasted and let the pack pick me up. Let someone else break the wind.
On the bumps in Rancho Santa Fe, where I snapped last year, I’m out of the saddle. I stay with the group comfortably. I don’t know where my heart rate is, I’m not looking down to check. The peloton doesn’t slow down for little hills like this, they just power over. I power over with them. I’m racing.
We hit the base of Del Dios and I’m in the middle of a huge group with maybe 50 riders in front of me. I focus on my tempo cause I know some will climb faster than I can and get away. I have to let them go. I can’t blow up here. I will dig deep, give what I have to give and ride tempo.
Riders go around me, I go around riders. I climb, I dig deep and I race. I focus on just getting to the next little rise, then I hammer the downhills to make up what I’ve lost to the leaders. I look down and see the shadow of a wheel behind me, it’s Voris - beauty! I look back and he knows what I need - a break. Voris comes around, gives me a push (like an angel!) and takes the lead for a bit. I survey the damage as we approach the end of the climb. There are two groups in front of us. A lead group of about 15 and a chasing group of maybe 20. Voris and I continue working together and at the top, we’re just behind the chasing group.
We can’t catch them by ourselves. We need a team, willing to work together to claw our way back into the chasing group. We find 3 other riders and do some quick turns on the descent to the 15 and onto Pomerado Rd. The chasing group is just ahead - they’ve sat up a bit to take a break. It’s now or never boys - when they start up again we better be on or we’ll never see them again. I take a strong pull, so does Dave. Someone else. I’m hurting and the chasing group is still sitting. We did it - we’re on the back of the chasing group.
I choke down a GU just as they get froggy and kick the pace up. Thankfully we’re inside and I get pulled along, sputtering sticky gel and gulping down water. The tempo down Pomerado is fast, but we let other people pace us, keeping a wary eye out for breakaways. Too close to the end to let someone get away. I chew down another GU because I know what’s coming. Pomerado hill - one of my favorite hills in all of San Diego. Short, steep and sweet, I know that I’m going to attack. I can’t take 20 people to the line and that hill is where we’re going to separate the wheat from the chaff - I hope I’m wheat!
Dave’s knee is hurting and he tells me he’s not going to hammer up the hill. Ok, I’m on my own now, but I know just what to do. My focus narrows as we approach the bottom and I’m not sure how to describe the intensity in my head. We hit the bottom and I’m off the front. Nothing flashy, I just ride away from everyone else with a storm raging in my heart. Goodbye. Enjoy your “fun ride”. I’m a racer and today, I’m racing.
Another rider catches me and slowly passes. Yes, I knew he would. He has a beard and is riding with a camelbak. Those guys always catch you on the hills. This is what they do. Then a triathelete looking guy goes by slowly and a guy in a Blues Brother’s jersey along with a grey-dog in a green jersey. At the top, it’s me and Blue Brothers with the Triathelete, Grey-dog and the Beard about 30 meters ahead. We’re about to drop down the other side of Pomerado - this is where we should maximize the gap we created on the climb. The gap between myself and the front three is dangerous. I hammer past Blue Brothers and say, “Get on! Let’s go!” and kick the pace as high as my legs will go. I move over and Blues Bro takes a hard turn. We catch the trio and now we’re a group of 5. I look back and don’t see anyone. With only a few miles left, it’s time to run like we stole something.
Grey-dog does a huge pull, he’s strong. Then triathelete gets on and we’re absolutely flying. I’m trying to hang onto his slipstream - wow! Blues Bro and I take more moderate pulls. The beard hangs in the back. I’m not the strongest one in this group, but I am going to be first across the line.
We fly around the Willow Creek turn and hammer up the hill. Then we swoop down through the commercial park and dive into a turn onto Scripps Ranch Blvd. I’m third and do a little prayer cause we’re not stopping and hopefully the cars will, but I don’t really care. I’m racing.
We get to the little rises past the high school and give it a push. Beard and gray-dog can hang. Predictable. Right turn onto Scripps Lake - it’s happening fast now. We are in the final k’s to the line. Just one last short and steep climb past the library.
Grey-dog goes off the front! It’s all happening right here. Now is the time! Fuck this, I go after him. It hurts, it hurts, it hurts! I don’t care. Everything I have is going into the pedals. My legs aren’t working properly. I ignore everything and focus on the rider ahead of me. I will catch you! I am catching you bastard! I’m at 99% hr max. Who cares, this is where it counts. Out of the saddle, I hammer an impossible gear and catch him at the top. We fly around the corner and dive into the neighborhood streets that lead to the finish. There are pedestrians, runners, other (much slower) cyclists. A woman with a stroller - jeez.
Grey-dog is faster through the corners as we descend to the park. He’s taking just a little more risk than me. We round the final turn and he’s got 10 meters on me. I sprint all out and he raises his arms in victory. I get second place. Second place in the second group. My best estimate (after comparing notes with others) is that I finished 17th overall out of about 200 riders.
I raced. I didn’t win (yesterday), but I raced.